Shocking news.

you know, sometimes you will be super wow by people's action. Such as the decisions that they make. You never know what it will become the next minute!

At such time, even though i tried convincing and making my point stands, ultimately its not me who gonna take the responsibility. So just respect what they want and be happy for them? BUT WHY?

Moving on, doing business is not easy! hahaha since when it was. But you never try you nv know! I think at such time, you will find out who are your friends who support and use action to prove it. Not by monetary of course, what i meant is morale support. From this, i realise i got not many close friends. lolll. I knew it long ago la just that what's happening now enhances my verdict.

Since poly days, i found out that no matter how close you are with a friend, they just leave me without giving me a reason. That hurts like hell but does she cares? NO. yup and that hurts tremendously more. Best friend forever? Its them who woke me up and told me there's nothing such as bffffff..

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Just finished watching amazing race and the final episode always brings tears to my eyes. The hardship and experience they went through are beyond words and can only be shared between the 2 best friends! gosh, best friend again. i guess its not in my life that i should have best friends. From the past friendships i had, i developed phobia of getting too close to someone and admitting that they are my best friend. (give yourself a pat on the shoulder if u had done that to me) Because they will eventually disappear! Maybe i am a very insecure person...i think i am.

I've been thinking, is it only when you are colleagues then u can be good friends??? Ever since i left my job, close friends do not seem close anymore...OK imma stop being childish. im 22! should stop crying over things that affected me so many thousand years ago. Their life still goes on and mine too.

There is alot more in my heart to be said but its best kept in the heart.

Hate thinking bout this, always make me emo.